My Mother Used to Say…

You have a hollow leg. As far as I knew there was no empty cavity in my leg. I never bothered to ask which one, both seemed to be full of whatever it is that legs are supposed to be full of. At no time during my waking hours did I notice a change in the appearance or feeling of my leg so I was pretty sure she was wrong.

Others seemed to agree.

We would go out for dinner and I would eat everything on my plate and then ask for more. I did not see or feel any change in the makeup of my legs but others must have because they too commented on my lack of whatever is supposed to fill a leg. I don’t want to appear unsympathetic to those who have endured leg injuries but I think you may be playing up the extent of the damage, I have a hollow leg, confirmed by many and it doesn’t seem to affect me at all.

What do you do with a hollow leg?

I am no expert on this, remember I didn’t even know I had a hollow leg, but I think it is best addressed with food. I was told more than once that I must be putting all that food in my hollow leg. It wasn’t friends my age that brought this up, these were adults so they knew what they were talking about. Besides that, my own anecdotal evidence suggested that food was the treatment because I never noticed I had a hollow leg.

I wish I still had a hollow leg.

It appears that my hollow leg is no longer hollow. I am not sure when I noticed the physical change or when people stopped mentioning it, but I do know one thing, my hollow leg got so full that it overflowed into my waist and surrounding area. Boy, I miss my hollow leg. I could eat as much as I wanted and no one could tell. Now that it is full to overflowing, I can’t have a second helping without my new storage area expanding at least one belt notch. Does anyone know how to get my hollow leg back? I miss the days when I had this deformity, especially now that beach weather is coming.

I really do have a hollow leg.

It’s not where I store the food I eat when I overindulge, it’s where I hide the secrets of my improper indulgences. It’s a great place to hide the things I do not want known. If you look at me you would never know I had this deformity, this cavity filled with my deepest darkest sins.

It’s nice having this hollow leg.

If I only store the darkest of my sins in it, no one notices because it never overflows. I can walk around carrying the secrets of my sin tucked away out of sight and never have to address them. I even think I have God fooled. I store the darkness so far away from my heart, the dwelling place of the Light of the World, that it will never be illuminated, it will never be exposed. On the outside I look like everyone else, on the inside I am like everyone else or at least most people.

My hollow leg fools only me.

It isn’t too far away from the light to be exposed. There is no dark hiding place that God cannot illuminate. It doesn’t matter how far away I place my indulgences, my nasty deep dark sinful behaviours, God can see them. I may have a hollow leg, a hiding place for the things that go beyond what God intends His children to do, but it only remains a hiding place because I choose not to let Him shine His light in.

It’s not that He doesn’t know what’s in there, it’s that I won’t let Him in to see it all. I want to act as if everything is okay, pretend He doesn’t know about my hollow leg, but I know that He knows and that something needs to change.

My hollow leg is a deformity that must be fixed.

If I really did have a hollow leg when I was young, it would need to be fixed. If I really packed food away in my leg it would sit until it rotted and infected the rest of my body.

As long as I have a hollow leg in my walk with God I will incur the same outcome. I will experience rot that spreads throughout my body, infecting it until even my heart, the dwelling place of the Light of the World becomes dark and dies.

This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin. 1 John 1:5-7 (NIV)

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