At least that’s what I have felt for the last year. What used to pop into my head and rattle around until it was ready to be assembled into a blog post has been nowhere to be found. Once in a while there would be something, but that something was really nothing but a longing to have something come out of what popped into my head, but nothing popped into my head that was anything close to becoming something. I am not sure you can write a blog on not being able to write a blog because you have nothing without creating a blog that is a lot of nothing trying to masquerade as something. I still believe I have something to say…

That may be the problem…

I have something to say but does God have something He wants me to say? 2023 has been full of opportunities to say what God has called me to say. It just hasn’t been in blog form. I want this to change. I want to write blogs. I want to inspire people to go deeper in their faith both in thought and in action through my posts. I have these wants but I need to be inspired by God not by my wants. To blog is not only to write but it is a commitment to read. I owe it to others who carefully seek God as they create personal masterpieces that they are willing to share with the world but time to do this is not the same abundant resource it once was.

I am a little older…

But I am not sure I am much wiser! Being a little older means that energy and time are closely linked. This not being a scientific blog allows me to connect two concepts that have fixed meanings and create an outcome that is neither provable in theory nor reproducible in a lab. Still, I will contend that for time to march on it takes energy, my energy. While each experience increases my knowledge it does not always result in more blogging. Each experience is what causes stuff to pop into my head. As time marches on, the energy to rattle experience around until it is ready to be assembled into a blog is depleting. Therefore, I have come to the conclusion that while I have more input with each experience, I have less energy with each passing year which is why I am not assembling ideas into blogs. This is what has led me to say I am older but not sure I am much wiser. As matter of fact, I am not sure I am smart enough to figure out what I just wrote, and I am definitely more tired from the experience so I may not be able to assemble it into a blog.

Still the experiences of last year have been awesome.

Yes, I am tired and have less energy both because I am older and because I am busier. Add in some health issues and we have the perfect recipe for time marching and me not keeping up. I may not be keeping up but the One I follow is not affected by time nor does His energy/power deplete. I have experienced Him in ways I could never imagine. I enjoy the encouragement and gratitude I get when I live out my calling as a transitional pastor, but there are times when I wish I could just sit down and write a blog then read your blogs. This year I will attempt to do just that while continuing to preach, lead worship and pour into churches who are working out the future God has for them. I am not sure how it will go or how often I will be able to do it all. I am sure of one thing. Whether it is a blog post or a sermon, a bible study or worship leading my desire is summed up in these words:

May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart [blogs, preaching etc.] be pleasing in your sight, Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer. Psalm 19:14 (NIV)