Her ties to her single life are strong and her view of commitment differs greatly from mine. I don’t know if she thinks she can get away with it, if she believes I don’t notice or if she actually doesn’t know that what she is doing is wrong. She must realize that I see her, that I know what she is doing and yet she continues. Maybe it’s that she knows my love is unconditional, that I can’t help loving her, after all my love for her defines who I am. Could she be taking advantage of such an undying love? She says she loves me, she says she wants nothing more than to be my bride and yet my bride is still cheating on me.
I have documented my love for her.
I have written about how much I am willing to give up for her. I have explained the depth of my passion for her. I have offered her a clear path to unequaled intimacy. I have to admit, I am jealous of anyone that would take her away from me even if it is just for one night. I have told her that I will always forgive her. I have spelled out my willingness to take her back no matter what she has done in many of the pages of my writings. When she does read them she seems to be truly moved by my love. She promises that things will be different but it doesn’t take long before my bride is cheating on me again.
I have surrounded her with influencers to point her in the right direction.
It turns out that they are just as void of morality as she is. Often they tell her she needs to change but they themselves live a life of adultery. Other times they weave their own cheating lifestyles into the directions they give. It is as if they have forgotten the instructions I gave them. It is as if I entrusted the wrong people with this task. Sadly, the more they cheat the more they promote cheating. The more they act wrongly the more they try to redefine what is wrong. My bride is cheating on me and the ones I send to correct her and guide her into purity have become just as impure leading her further and further away from me.
Every time she sees another she finds him more attractive than me.
I can’t compete. It isn’t that I haven’t tried. In a perfect world I am the most attractive, I have the most to offer her and I love her more than anyone else can. You may think I am bragging but I am simply telling the truth. There is nothing in me that desires to elevate myself. I am more than willing to become nothing so that she will experience the love and forgiveness that I am offering. I am willing to die if that would change anything. At one time this concept did change things.
She saw that I was more committed than anyone else, that I had more to offer, that I could love her more than any other. She called me her only true love, committed herself to me but then another came along. His offers were empty and his beauty fleeting. She said there was no other but I knew she found him more attractive. She eventually had enough of his limitations but it wasn’t long before a new one came along. Like I said before, I am not sure if she figures my unconditional love will force me to accept her back or she really doesn’t know what she is doing is wrong. Either way my bride is cheating on me.
I was in search of a bride but all I ended up with was a mistress.
She says she loves me but all she seems to be in love with is herself. Whenever she has a need she fills it the way that is easiest or most convenient. Yes, sometimes that is me, the one that really loves her, but more often than not I am left waiting for her to return to me. I do not desire a mistress but her inability to commit, to accept my unfailing love, has turned her into one. She flirts with anyone that will flirt back. She seeks attention from anyone that will make her feel good. She gives herself to anyone that tickles her fancy. I am left with open arms and a lovesick heart pleading with her to come home, to stay home, to remain faithful but my bride or should I say the mistress of many is still cheating on me.
It is time for the church to stop being a mistress to many masters and become the bride of just one.
Then I heard what sounded like a great multitude, like the roar of rushing waters and like loud peals of thunder, shouting:
“Hallelujah! For our Lord God Almighty reigns. Let us rejoice and be glad and give him glory! For the wedding of the Lamb has come, and his bride has made herself ready.Fine linen, bright and clean, was given her to wear.” Revelation 19:6-8 (NIV)